It says that my interests "relate to the abstract, the spiritual, and utopian dreams." I'm not a particularly spiritual or religious person personally (I guess I consider myself an agnostic atheist), but I'm very interested in religion/spirituality or other abstract and "out there" ideas just because I like to think about how they originated or the psychology behind them. For example, I love reading about conspiracy theories and unexplained events (UFOs, time or reality shifts, parallel worlds, supernatural events, etc.). I don't necessarily believe them but I don't necessarily just read about them to laugh at the people who do believe them. I just find them genuinely interesting.
About the "utopian dreams" part, I'm not a particularly optimistic or idealistic person—in fact, I consider myself pretty cynical. However, I'm still very invested in the idea of making the world a better place in terms of social justice and the like, but I don't think that a "utopian" society is possible. I also have big dreams for my future, but I try and keep a realistic point of view towards them. Unfortunately the realistic point of view tips to a pessimistic point of view far too often.
It says that I may possess some of the negative 11 traits are being tense or nervous, which is certainly accurate. I deal with anxiety disorder and OCD, which both produce a great deal of tension a lot of the time. It also says that I'm too sensitive and overly emotional which, at first glance, I dismissed as being inaccurate. However, after reading further to where it says that sometimes these sensitivities are quite repressed, which leads to more nervous tension. I realized that this is actually pretty accurate. Along with the anxiety and OCD I've also been diagnosed with chronic depression which often results in me being overly sensitive to very small events in the day which can, against my will, trigger a very negative emotional response. I always try to repress these reactions, or at least not be obvious about it because I feel that not only are they highly inconvenient for me, but also for my friends and other people I interact with.
The last part states that 11s are not very practical because of "extreme idealism" and that there's a "degree of self-deception" present, as well as inflexibility due to a fixed idea of right and wrong. I do have a very prominent idea of right and wrong and I tend to get irritated or angry at people who are more insensitive and not as socially aware as I would like them to be, resulting in them crossing into the "wrong" side of my right/wrong dichotomy. Despite that I do think that I have a more grey sense of morality, or at least believe that morality is a spectrum, with wrong on the far left and right on the far right. I don't think that most people fall into a black and white binary category of "right" or "wrong" or "good" and "bad," and I do try to be forgiving and not inflexible when it comes to people who have crossed a line in my point of view, but I do tend to not forget when someone has said or done something that I found offensive or was morally opposed to.
All in all, the numerology analysis was somewhat of a mixed bag, though while I was writing this I did realize that it was a bit more correct than I initially thought it was.
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